Born: 05-19-1981
Ottessa Moshfegh is an acclaimed American author known for her sharp, darkly humorous prose and deeply introspective narratives. Her notable works include "Eileen," which was shortlisted for the Man Booker Prize, and "My Year of Rest and Relaxation." Moshfegh's writing often explores themes of identity, isolation, and the human psyche, earning her a reputation for creating compelling, unsettling characters. She holds an MFA from Brown University and resides in Los Angeles.
I'd been neither happy nor unhappy. I'd been writing, and then I'd been not writing.
I had absolutely nothing to do, and I was doing nothing spectacularly well.
I was a beautiful little ghost.
I would have slept forever, content in the void of my own mind.
I was just a person, just a human being who could break only so many times before she wasn't a person anymore.
The silence was a kind of luxury, like the silence that comes with a long, dreamless sleep.
I felt calm and confident, knowing that I was in control of my own destiny.
I didn't want to feel good. I wanted to feel nothing.
I was free to do whatever I wanted, and what I wanted was nothing.
I didn't want to be in the world. I wanted to be apart from it, to exist unconnected to anyone or anything.
I didn't want to be loved or touched, but I was still human.
I was living in a reality of my own making, a world of my own design.