Born: 01-01-1926
John Gardner was a distinguished American novelist and literary critic, renowned for his unique storytelling and exploration of moral themes. Born in 1933, he gained acclaim with works like "Grendel," a retelling of the Beowulf myth. Gardner was also a respected teacher of creative writing and penned influential books on the craft, such as "The Art of Fiction." His legacy continues to inspire writers and readers alike.
I observe myself observing what I observe. It startles me. 'Then I am I?'
I understood that the world was nothing: a mechanical chaos of casual, brute enmity on which we stupidly impose our hopes and fears.
I was Grendel, warpspawned, deformed to a giant monster.
I am mad with joy.
I was full of fear, full of hatred.
I understood that, finally and absolutely, I alone exist.
I was sure I was dead.
I was the worst of all monsters, I was the worst of all men.
I understood that the universe was nothing but a fuming chaos.
I understood that the shapes of gods and devils are subjective.
I see a world of magnificent destiny for me.
I see the world through my own eyes, and I am the only one I can ever know, if I can know myself at all.